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Taken with a Grain of Salt My Life is...
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| Kill the Drama |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|02:38 am] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  tired | ] |
"Break neck lies romanticize these empty headed alibies, the drama you create amuses you and only you so take all these lies and be real again" - Strung Out
hmm vickis party was fun i love skinny dipping its so liberating plus made a new friend steve teo together we were team unbeatable and we had a song and dance it was funny...we dominated in chicken fighting
he was tangoing with vicki and i was with adam and we were having dance contests in the pool naked and now i have tons of bug bites but it was definetely a ball
not for the ball though she got upset at me because i didn't bring her home early enough and she had somewhere to be the next day..she frustrated me because she couldn't let it go after like a day and a half and didnt want to talk about it even but then she called me today and we hung out so that good..she didn't get over it i can tell but at least she is trying to hide it....its appreciated she should know
work is okay...people are talking about quitting which is good for me because i will get more hours but not good cuz they were my favorites there! Hopefully Tracy doesn't decide to go with them she is too much fun!
hung out with amy and aaric tonight that is always fun! me and aaric were doing the mj thriller dance in the parking lot why? hmm idk were weird it was the garage I'm telling you it did something to everyone most of the time they all talked about megan i didn't have much to say i didn't know most of that stuff was going on..probably cuz i didn't care to know its just messed up drama that will never go away i feel bad for the baby.....its going to have a rough life
"Yeah the drama never ends
the doctors say that
it's too late but I'm still waiting" - Midtown |
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| How we strive to connect only to fall apart |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|04:01 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  relaxed | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | the bled | ] |
yea so things have been good lately...I feel like my only friends are the ones i work with, which is pretty sad considering that we don't hang out outside the rink. I guess its nice to know that when plans fall threw that i can go there....
I did hang out with ash and stacey on thurs & fri which was good times but overall my summer is going pretty slow...
stacey tried sushi and didn't like it CRAZY! then that weird lady got into the car..details in ash and staceys journal
saw farenheit 9/11 on friday and it was really good. Michael Moore is an awesome journalist and film maker. The movie sold out which was impressive. I wasn't expecting that, it was interesting to watch the movie in a movie theater that is packed with people because then you can observe a crowd reaction which was interesting.
i just watched meet your meat revised and other videos and it soo upsetting and sad how animals are treated. I don't get how people can eat meat, im so disgusted. Even more, I don't get how the people who work in slaughter houses can sleep at night knowing they are going to wake up only to torture animals. EWww...I can't even eat my tofu hot dogs right now lol and thats completely animal fREE! I want to go to a protest i think it would be fun lol bob is going to one next weekend and im soo jealous. He is excited about meeting the girls lol he is going girl crazy lately don't know whats into him but whatever....i really want to meet another vegan from CT because i don't know any lol I think it would be good times
warped tour is coming up hopefully plans work out and i end up going...peta will be therE! Whether or not i will get up the guts to go to the table who knows? but its cool that they will be there.... a lot of people don't like peta. I don't know why, they say they are so extreme but i guess its just because of their ignorance..HO |
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| The Need for more stays pressing but she can't force the pen... |
[Jun. 20th, 2004|09:27 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  relieved | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | TREOS - Bell, Book, and Candle | ] |
hmm nothing much going on the past couple of days i went to my other moms today and she made me a vegan cake..it came out tasting like a brownie but its all good....and they made me stuffed portebello mushrooms...they always have food for me when i go there it is soo nice....
then again they are always like if you want some of this we won't tell anyone we promise lol
then my little brother and sister cleaned my car out soo good..it was sooOO messy..like terrible..they vaccumed and did the windows and the outside and it looks spiffy....hopefully i can keep it like that now...
i actually ended up going to ashleys graduation i called my manager and like begged.....but she was sooO nice about it and so i went and ashley seemed happy but soon as it was over i had to be out...too bad it wasn't just a little longer because soon as i got there danielle was like oo i was just going to call you and tell you that you didn't have to come in because there would be no point....damn soo close then i could have hung out....
the last day of school tommarrow..lol its soo bad everyone else is already out....i don't get it we barely have snow days too...im soo glad this year is over...
OMG MOST AMAZING STORY EVER!- - i really slacked off this year and its not good cuz junior year is suppose to be important but i have chemistry 1st block and i was always late so i would always miss it...i literally went to chemistry like 2 or MAYBE 3 times since april vacation..i honestly don't member anymore than that....then the day of the exam i missed it AGAIN! and when i went to make it up she said since i didn't have an excused absence i couldn't...and soo she showed me my grade without the final and i totally passed...just barely but i passed i was sooo pumped without doing one homework assignment all year and not taking the final..im amazed..its soo great i hate chemistry!
yea soo thats pretty much all thats up....i can't wait till summer officially starts...ahhh freedom... |
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| What can i say? I am a Ninja! |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|06:17 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  nerdy | ] |
haha today i had tons of fun at the mall with ali and jen...we went into hollister and tried on clothes over our clothes because their clothes are so skanky we think its funny and we were taking pictures until we got in trouble..apparentely no flash photography can be used at hollister lol
then we were waiting forever for our music to come on...we were doing crosswords in the magazines and sitting around looking like losers who hang out at hollister haha did you know that they play punk there?? haha who would have thought i had never really been in there and i went in and nfg came on and i laughed hysterically because that is such a preppy store...yea so we were dancing like idiots to the songs and i was like putting tube tops on my head because they were soo small they reminded me of hats and i found one that i really liked lol it was really comfortable....i totally went all secret agent with on of the tube tops and like stared at this lady and was like o no and dropped to the ground...it was a bowl of laughs i am so retarded...
yea and all of this is just us waiting for our songs to come and wasting time..we ended up there for an hour and a half and are songs still didn't come on so we gave up....im surprised they let us stay in there that long we were being soo bad....we were doing really bad dances like the marcia brady dance and attempting to break dance lol we are soo white! lol it was too much fun
i actually found some shirts that i like and will have to go back and get they were those shirts at urban outfitters with all the funny sayings on them...they are mooching off of urban outfitters but that is okay.....the shirts are too funny to pass up... |
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| I know your leaving, looks like you've found a way to reach my heart |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|12:02 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| | thankful | ] |
yea so had a meeting at work the other day and my manager was very serioius when she said that we couldn't switch hours anymore and so now im bumped because i can't go to ashbee's graduation. It would be hard to even find someone to take over cuz im working from 4-12. She is really upset and i knew she would be but i dont know what she wants me to do its out of my hands.
hopefully she will just know that i care about her and that im happy for her and she will understand that i did want to be there...especially because i know someone else very close to her won't be....
today had an intense journalism class...we had the first awards it was very nice a lot nicer than i thought it would be the decorations were nice but hmmm there was nothing i could eat there! ashbee even reminded them and they still did nothing about it...how disrespectful! Anyways i almost cried hearing mr amato talking about everyone with great appreciation...especially when he opened his gift and how he was so overwelmed and happy it was such a good feeling thats when i almost cried....mr amato almost did too he was choking up i think he will cry later on when he opens it up and starts playing with it....next year is not going to be the same without everyone...ashley, kat, marissa, dan....honestly at one point during the whole thing i even thought i was going to miss dan that was smushed when i found out that on the plack he only put his name and sarahs...that made me loose all respect for him he shouldn't have collected money from people if he was going to take all the credit....thats crap....pisses me off soo much....yup but i will always remember everyone from journalism..next year im not going to be able to take it i know im going to cry...not cuz of the people but because of leaving the paper and mr amato....sometimes i wish i could tell him how much he means to me and how much being on the paper means to mee but i don't know how....wow i sound like a newspaper dork....done with that......haha
now im going to go and lounge in the air conditioning because its soo nice...ahhhh |
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| Then ask me whats it like to have myself so figured out I wish I knew |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|06:46 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Away From Here - The Day the Sun Died | ] |
last couple days of school and i still manage to skip a day...this is bad lol
got my haircut...i like it, i needed a change im going to get it dyed soon too whenever i have time again
plus i have come to the conclusion that im not the girlfriend type... im the type of girl that you would rather hang out with and be good friends with then go out with....sucks for me...but hey what can i do....
talk to leah the other day, that was interesting...since i haven't in awhile.....she wants to hang out so thats cool..
oooo im pissed the bled and beloved are going on tour together but not coming to the east!!!!!!! that makes me soo mad that show is going to rock and im not going to see it *sad face* |
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| Abandon ship, cause I'm going down You can't jump first, Cause I'd rather drown |
[Jun. 13th, 2004|01:43 am] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | the contingency plan - chemical burn | ] |
i had a pretty good day today at work..it was fun i met a kind that had vampire teeth..that was actually kind of cool..kind of weird too lol...
also good part of the night was mike dedicating the avril lavigne song to brad from all his 12 year old friends...that was soo funny i fell on the ground laughing no lie....hilarious!
then i was all pumped to hang out with ashley and stacey but for the second night in a row....i guess they were too tired or something....who knows....i kind of feel like this is a glimpse into the summer, i work they hang out together...but i would rather go to work than take it off...when i get hours i work them...its dependable...probably the most dependable thing i have right now....why would i take off of that??? then i would get less hours, less money..plus i like the people that i work with, of course i would like to hang out with my other friends as well but apparently thats not possible...when i don't work they are busy or when i do work its too late for them..i don't know it never works out....and right now i feel like it never will....
soo to think i drove 25 minutes out of the way to this elementary school playground me, ashley,bj, and dan used to go to....its a good place to think...its also pretty freaky but it was the first place i thought of...when i got there though there was already two cars there and there was nobody in them it was weird and i couldn't see anybody on the playground by just looking from my car soo i was like hmm i think its time for me to leave...then i went to woodland parking lot and it just wasn't the same....then i tried long river and it was alrite..it would be a good place when its cold outside to sit in the car....then i decided to go to alqoinquin (not sure how to sp) that was cool it has the field right next to it..i went up on the slide and thought for awhile....it was peaceful....i think i will go there first instead of all the way to BF.....i kind of wish that i had like someone i could call and just talk to but i don't...i know cuz i loooked through my whole phonebook it was kind of depressing but hey w/e what can ya do? so tommarrow > work....which at first was responsiblity but now is refreshing....
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Burn me alive
From the inside out
Your all I have
Don't let me down
Clutching my chest
Just tear it out
Useless to me...
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| Every Failure is Sweeter Than the Last |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|09:52 am] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | the used - noise and kisses | ] |
yesterday was a good day went to see numb at my school and it was amazing...i seriously can not believe that laura and marissa wrote it....it honestly rocked...i went to the dress rehearsal because i have work on friday and saturday...soo i might take work off on friday to go and see it again....its only 3 hours of work....yea so it was good...minus some of the acting....its so weird some people at woodland are so incrediably talented and then others just are not...but they both get into the play...hmm interesting....the whole time i was thinking i could have played the father better than him...oops you know who talking about....
anyways i woke up late today..i don't know why i got to sleep early...i didn't hear my alarm clock....thats okay i will just go to last period now...i missed chemistry,art skills, and gym...no big deal...i can't fail gym if im not there...chemistry we are probably watching a movie plus ihave all my make up work i just have to hang it in....and artskills there is no hope for that class....my first project blew up in the kiln...it was soo awesome too....not intentionally i made the perfect boob...no lie....first i made my pot then i made a top for it that totally looked like a nipple everyone at my table was laughing so hard lol it was awesome and i was so excited to paint it appropriate colors until it blew up...the only thing that stayed in tact was the nipple it ended up in nick's spoon lol
ya soo ashbee and me were talking about soccer and how she thinks that i should tryout again next year...cuz i did this year and i didn't make it....i had shin splits (ouCH!) and i have knee problems so those two combined equals the worst pain ever! no lie..but i still went to the tryouts and worked my butt off....i seriously tried so hard...i would run until tears were falling down my face but apparently they didn't see this...all they saw were the excercises that i couldn't do like when we would run a mile before practice and by the time practice is over im crippled so im sorry i can't do the last mile and sprints.....i tried my best with my injury and i was hoping they would see my perserverance and dedicatedness but they didn't...they cut me and said they would like me to tryout next year (probably written on everyones paper) and said that i was out of shape! out of shape! i was out of shape but not any more then any of the other girls...and i am definetely better than some that made it cough cough (sam!) so after 10 years! of playing soccer i was cut....isn't that nice...see i still have soo much bitterness left i don't think i can tryout again..im too mad....no im pissed still....its not fair....i hold grugdes and im stubborn and everyone probably got so much better since i left....i probably lost my number too....there was this sopohmore that wanted it.....ewww....i really don't think i can go through that again....and after i was cut i was hurt for at least 3 weeeks when i wasn't doing anything because i overworked (can you believe that OVERWORKED) myself with my injuries...and all for nothing....not something i want to relive.... |
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| Choses que je n'ai compris pas ont intéressent toujours |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|04:18 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | alexisonfire - water wings | ] |
omg summer could not start soon enough.....well the weather is here now all we need is the long nights and afternoon mornings.....i have soo much work to get down before the end though..its terrible, i don't get how woodland has like no snow days and during the winter its a death trip to school because they don't cancel school when it needs to be yet when it comes summer time we get out later than all the other schools....it just doesn't make sense to me.....
oo im bumped im not going to fall out boy..it was going to be a good show...well at least i don't have to go to the webster again (not a fan of that venue) but still fall out boy....
i have the reading and writing of my french exam tommarrow.....plus like a billion things due in english and history...i think i might do some of it.....such a nice day too..what a shame.... |
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| I try to Hold it All inside But Just For Tonight |
[Jun. 6th, 2004|12:07 am] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | The Used - On My Own | ] |
ewww i feel soo blah today...you would too if you realized you had NO FRIENDS...i finally get a saturday nite off from work and i have nothing to do....i looked through my whole phonebook and i didn't call anyone....i got myself some sushi went home and watched a movie...im a loser..noone was even at my house.....
i don't know a lot of things going through my head right now.....and then ashley calls me when she gets back from the show and she is all upbeat and chipper and it was just annoying me...and she gets all offended when i say that i don't feel like talking on the phone....i wanted to stab myself in the eye listening to her ramble about things of little importance to me at the moment.....if i were in her shoes i would rather not be on the phone with me at this particular moment too.....
things just never make sense....gives me such a headache....seriously WHAT? is up with me and bob??? lol our whole relationship type thing/friendship doesn't make sense at all............
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sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down, slow it down
without it all
and now it seems that I have found
nothing at all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
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| Hold me up dear Should i Go Home or Stay Here.... |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|01:30 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Anadivine - Alcohol and Oxygen | ] |
soo today i got dismissed early because the nurse freaked over the red spots on my throat, she was convinced it was strep throat but i knew it wasn't it didn't even hurt....i really did not want to go home because i have missed soo much days of school already but the nurse would not let me stay in school she said i was contagious.......
soo i go home take a nap go to the doctor and he says i have a non-contagious virus and that is will get better on its own....perfect now i don't have to miss work and i can actually do something tonight....
so today wasnt a bad day....i wish i went to algebra..i can't miss too many of those days..the woman gives homework like a whore gives head..its insane..i already have so many assignments to make up.....plus today wouldn't have been a bad day she wasn't in school she went to see her son graduate.....i have soo much homework to do and quizzes to make up and a paper to create im going to be going crazy... this next week....plus my early french exam...boy am i rethinking my excitement about that one....
soo work today and then maybe illusions..hmmm..bob goes back to OK tommarrow....awww im going to miss him he doesn't come back till september....i have so much fun hanging around with him....we are soo weird, most of the time we spend together is laughing at ourselves....its fun i won't even say some of the stuff that we do because its too weird.... |
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| From Throat and Eyes Came Winter and Reasons.... |
[Jun. 3rd, 2004|03:02 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Saosin - Mookie's Last Christmas | ] |
i think im sick...i have been coughing and not thinking anything of it because ya know i get coughs and they usually just go away but hmm now i have red spots at the back of my throat.....which are actually pretty gross...i feel bad this means i got bob sick..hey whatever..when i visited him in OK he got me sick so its all even now....
i talked to his ex gf the other day and she used to work with me too and she caught me at bobs house while he was in ct...i wanted to tell her that we were together now and get her jealous but i couldn't be that mean and lie to her....i think she assumed things anyways soo that is good enough for me...she is such a bitch....
the end of this school year can not come soon enough....the year is just dragging...im excited that i get to leave early for my french exam because we are having it during the last week....yea im pumped about that....im also excited for layout editor next year...its going to be soo much fun..plus i think that i decided on my senior project for next year too which is really easy..i think im going to do something on my veganism because by then i will be over a year vegan and it will be really easy to research and do a presentation on so thats good....even though i kind of wanted to do something with peta just because there are so many people that hate them...i just found out today...so many oo i hate those people i was like whhhaaatt? i didn't get it and when i asked why they didn't even have any valid reasons.....sure they are extreme but if they weren't noone would know about them...at least they got peoples attention now.... |
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| Keep Quiet, Nothing Comes as easy as You..... |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|02:42 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Fall Out Boy - Nobody Puts Baby in Corner | ] |
i have beeen busy lately.... thursday was the talent show then hung out with tom, marissa, mike, and ashley after.. funny times...
friday i was late to work just like in my dream which is weird...also friday i went galaxy bowling with bob, and his friends neil and mike...it was tons of fun im not the best bowler but with all three of them dancing around there was definetely a lot of laughs...then i went back to bobs house and we hung out watched homestar runner and stuff...
saturday i worked and then i was going to hang out with ashley but i didn't feel like hanging out with adam because he is a real dick when it comes to my veganism so i went to the other rink with mike and bob...then after that i went to illusions..wow havent been there in awhile i remembered some of the dances i was surprised i kind of wish that fei was there i miss her since she quit but dom was there and that was enough entertainment.....he smelt soo bad and keep trying to get me to smell is arm pits lol how appalling then after i went to bobs house and we looked at funny websites like starter up steve, etc.
sunday morning i went to my aunts meeting where she got her medal for being one year clean..that was nice...i left 15 minutes early so i didn't get to see her actually get the medal but i heard her speak before that about her addiction and her life up until that moment...it was kind of sad i learned a lot of things that i didn't know about her....plus her whole life reminded me of jacqi which was a little upsetting...but then i went to work... after work me and bob drove to MA to see fata, atreyu and 18v. It was a good show but not fata's best in my opinion, i think that atreyu definetely put on a better show..the fans were so much more into it...and 18v hmm they were good but they seemed like they were trying to hard to look good...the only cool part was when the bassist licked his bass it was hott!
monday (my bday!) was fun i went to crystal and mikes wedding it was small which was nice crystal looked soo pretty it was a really nice ceremony..oo man she got a vegan cake and it was soo delicious it was like bananna something..it was awesome...which like coconut frosting...i was in love...a lot of people showed up for work and im excited cuz noone i don't like showed up (cough cough christian and tanja) they were suppose to come but they didn't which was good, it made it so much better....afterwards me and bob went back to doms house and watched part of stuck on you..which was a horrible movie....it was just so dumb in my opinion....after that im not sure if i went back to bobs house or not i think i might have hmmm....
anyways tuesday nothing too exciting i went out to mr.wok's with bob and we had sushi! YUMMMMM...i love sushi...oo even thinking about it makes me want more! hmm i might have to swing by the mall and get some....then we went back to crystals house cuz they were on their honeymoon awww and me and bob watched kill bill the first one...what a weird movie..i wasn't too into it i think that it could be a good movie with serious music and not all the music that they played haha it reminded me of an amateur film maker just getting used to the special effects and was so excited that he had to use all of them...haha some reason i kind of want to see the second one but not bad enough to go to the movies to see it......yup todays wednesday i want to hang out with ashley but she doesn't feel good soo we will see..hmmm |
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| If your looking for an open book, look no farther I am yours |
[May. 24th, 2004|10:04 pm] |
| [ | By a round of applause i feel... |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Treos - The Race | ] |
so im ditching greatestjournal because everyone i know has livejournals and i finally got one with no help from a certain someone (cough cough will)
yea soo tough weekend...and im scared about the up coming weekend...
this weekend i had work on friday till 12am then my cousin called and i hung out with him and got home at 430 am....then saturday work till 12am again....then sunday had work till 430pm and went to milford with ashbee and hung out with stacey (missed her!!), mark, greg,jeff, and heather. it was tons of fun watched finding nemo...jeff dyed his hair....
good shows coming up...nfg on wednesday and then on sunday its fata and then on tuesday im going to see killswitch engage...and i know there are other shows in there some where i just can't remember them..hmm i will ask ashbee haha...
today was a good day...i didn't go to school i was sick and my mom wanted the computer so i took a nap and i had so many ims i felt loved lol...marrianne imed me,josh,ashbee,and the most surprising LEAH.....i miss her much.....she was off by the time i got it though (sad face) |
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